[TRIGGER WARNING] I don’t wake up thinking, “How can I end my life today?” I don’t hate my life. In fact, I’m very happy. I love being a mum, being married, living the middle life. But time and time again I catch myself in my […]
Getting pregnant with Reuben was easy. After just two months trying to conceive I got my positive. Baby making, it appeared, wasn’t hard work. But now I know I was just lucky; now we’re trying for baby number two, it’s of course a different […]
Back before my child was even born I knew chronic pain would make motherhood tricky for me. Chronic illness is a fact of life for me – I’ve had fibromyalgia for over a decade and joint hypermobility syndrome (JHS) since my teens – so I […]
For as long as I’ve been a mother I’ve had anxiety. To me, motherhood and anxiety are one and I don’t see a horizon on this tumultuous sea of worry. People love to tell you that anxiety comes with being a parent. Mums and dads […]
If pregnancy doesn’t come with enough reasons to worry the whole nine months long, it turns out there’s another one to add to the list. Your midwife has probably never mentioned it, the NHS doesn’t routinely test you for it, but it’s one of the […]
After a tense few months of anxiety and nausea, earlier this week I was finally able to share some exciting news – I’m pregnant! If you’ve been following the blog for a while you’ll know why I’d be nervous this time around, when a year […]
Trying for a baby is mental. Literally. I thought it was easy the first time. Came off the pill and wham bam, the following month I was pregnant. Of course I ended up miscarrying, and now it’s all back to round one again, but this […]
I discuss periods occasionally on the blog because while menstruation is a ridiculously taboo subject to raise, it’s still a fact of life. It may be a given that periods aren’t the most comfortable monthly experience, but it doesn’t mean you should be suffering. Ever since my first period I’ve […]
Year ends have a way of throwing you into the emotional mixer. The annual wave of goodbye, through feelings of satisfaction or relief, brings forth the rush of excitement for what the new year may hold – with daunted trepidation toward new beginnings roused by fears from the past. New […]
I wrote this piece about a month ago, that I later decided I wouldn’t post. This is what I’m like: writing is my therapy. I go through phases of emotions and big life questioning that I’ll get over and may or may not revisit. I call it ‘life lethargy’. […]
Weddings are romantic, exciting and a good excuse for a party, but next to house moving, getting married is also high up there on the list of life’s most stressful events. So really, deciding to put a wedding on the cards before Christmas would be quite ludicrous. And […]
Last year (2014) I revealed myself to the world. Sharing my most shaded secret with Grazia magazine, I confessed probably the biggest social taboo of today: I had no friends. Having struggled half my life with post traumatic stress following an assault at 16, I’d reached the point […]
